Ekta gets the opportunity to interview Hanuman with their association taking them all the way back to 2012. Hanuman and Ekta started together as volunteers at Kosmic Fusion and have come a long way.
Hanuman was abused by one of the malignant narcissist for over 5 years and has been through counselling for over a year now. Recovering from narcissistic abuse is one of the most difficult stage as victims are often prone to hovering by their perpetrator.
Hanumans’ strength is commendable as he was able to breakthrough patterns of substance abuse and feels his “family” at Kosmic Fusion has always been pillar of support.
As Ekta says in her own words…
“This was one of the most difficult interview for me, as an Empath I could feel the pain in Hanumans voice and there were times when I felt emotional asking questions. Perhaps it was just due to knowing Hanuman since 2012, the first day I met him at Kosmic Fusion event in 2012. All of us treat him like our younger brother, though one of the Narcissist felt Hanuman was her personal property….but that’s how they treat people anyways, like things”
How do you know Sree Maa?
It is quite a bit of story to share. When I first met Sree Maa, it was at Online Awakening and Transformation Workshop. I didn’t find Sree Maa, but it was “Grace” that found me.
I remember something really missing. My prayer was heard and I recall it was summer, it was last day and last hour of festival …and I decided to go and somehow I was able to find Kosmic Fusion.
While looking at the brochure there was something that caught me and I decided to do Awakening and Transformation workshop. I has such a profound experience (at the workshop).
Being a bartender, I used to drink, party, smoke. To feel something very very deep, something that awakened, I never felt that before.
I wanted to give something back so I decided to volunteer. I volunteered at Gold Coast, that was the first time I got to meet Sree Maa Shri Ji. I did something there, of which I’m not proud of. People convinced me to do something that I shouldn’t be doing. It was something out of protocol from mission of Kosmic Fusion and I pretty much broke every bridge that there was. I didn’t meet Sree Maa Shri Ji yet and I was supposed to meet them next day. At that time, I knew straight away that I have been waiting and waiting for eons of lifetimes.
I knew very deep down, that my Atma spoke to me, it said “she’s the one”. I never treated Sree Maa as a Guru yet I have been waiting all my lifetime.
How would you describe Sree Maa?
I have never met anyone who is so much compassionate, most loving. I waited all my lifetime (for this opportunity) and I ended up doing something so wrong, I could not believe that I’d do something like this. I didn’t have the sensibility, I didn’t have the ethics, I was very egotistical and to find someone who is so welcoming with open heart, despite knowing that I did something so wrong.
I just knew then, who is Sree Maa Shri Ji for me.
Ekta shares in her words…
“Hanuman met Sree Maa when he was going through a rough patch in life however he was able to get constant guidance and support through this difficult phase.”
Hanuman, I know you have been through quite a lot. Particularly at the hands of one of the volunteer, who also joined Kosmic Fusion and Facilitator in Training programme. What would like to share about Sree Maa’s role in your healing process after the long standing abuse?
I have to say that Sree Maa always has well wishes for me.
Sree Maa took care of me, gave me advice and nurturing when needed.
Though we had narcissists, I was so blown away with Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photon Pulse, I didn’t think some insidious person will go out of the way to malign and destroy someones (talking about himself) opportunity.
Didn’t Sree Maa stand by you the whole time and supported you, like any victim from a Narcissistic abuse has deep and traumatic signs? I have seen you, and you look quite alright now.
Yes Ekta, all due to grace of Sree Maa. Even though I had been a proxy to a narcissist.
Sree Maa Shri Ji knows that I have been a victim of a malignant narcissist and I have been abused, I have been given such a profound support, with rest of the Kalyan Mitras also supporting me. It was easier to heal and be free again.
You had profound experience with Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photon Pulse. Do you like to share about that?
I don’t know what it is, the Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photon Pulse was always there to support me. It didn’t matter if the narcissist was using and abusing me, it was always the one supporting me.
I’m still here and I’m not going anywhere.
I’m very fortunate to have Sree Maa and Quantum Vortex Scalar-Wave Photon Pulse and I know what I want, where I’m going and no body is going to take that away from me.
How has Sree Maa made a difference in your life?
I also had dark side of the self. No matter how much you are trying to ignore it, it is always going to be there and it is something I have been living with, most of my life.
I was very egotistical before coming to Kosmic Fusion, Sree Maa gave me the phrase “The Truth shall set your free” and I felt like that the very first day itself. This is what I hold in my heart very deeply.
How would you describe Sree Maas teaching style?
I’m someone that cannot be fooled. If I can be in this (learning) position then anyone can do. Sree Maa Shri Ji was able to cater to everyone’s understanding, logical and very very funny. That’s what I love about Sree Maa Shri Ji. They always make me laugh.
I was always bombarded (with fun), even if something was holding me back.
Is there anything you would like to share from your experience in the FiT programme?
I just want to say that, I never believed that I was capable to find the path of BrahmaRoop. I said to myself, this is something beyond what I can imagine. It is a once in a million lifetime opportunity and to find that support and find Sree Maa Shri Ji. It just gave me that supersonic shortcut.