Meera/Iphigenie admittance of sabotaging Kosmic Fusion

Originally published – May 2018

We have been receiving information from various sources that Meera/Iphigenie has been running a smear campaign to malign the name of Kosmic Fusion hence we are releasing this audio clip from our resources, please note this was our definitely not our preferred way to deal with the situation, however are left with no any other option.  In continuation to the post , here is one of the excerpt of audio recording & letter sent to us by Meera/Iphigenie which highlights her intentions of joining Kosmic Fusion, plans to sabotage the mission to serve the local community, manipulate & exploit volunteers.

Transcript Meera/Iphigenie Audio recording 31st July 2017 – admittance of sabotaging Kosmic Fusion

“I wanted to destroy Kosmic Fusion and wanted to start my own group in Germany. I did share this with Orja to manipulate her in thinking that I will leave her in the Ashram alone. So she would feel uncomfortable about it. Then I kept asking Ekta about Europe and the group that is forming there already to check out if it is worthwhile already to go there and continue with my destruction.

As soon as the Ashram had been formed I felt it was even more important to sabotage the meet up and tribe meetings in NZ. They came to a halt. Meet up only started again when Shri Ji Maharaj initiated them again. I then manipulated Renu into organising them, pretending I was too busy in the Ashram. I did not want to do anything and also made sure I could not join the first meet up, leaving Renu and Orja on their own. After I had manipulated Renu into leaving Kosmic Fusion, I did not turn up to the next meet up. Only because Shri Ji Maharaj reminded me about the meeting, did I “remember” and everyone came to know. My plan was to quietly sabotage without others to find out. I quickly blamed Renu for having created a date outside our normal routine, which I knew about and had agreed to it. I rang Orja, pushing blame on her, still not taking any responsibility. Shri Ji Maharaj had to remind me a second time about the missed meeting, only then did I put a comment with an apology online. I wanted to destroy the reputation of Kosmic Fusion, so nobody will ever join Kosmic Fusion NZ.

I also sabotage the Christchurch event. My communication with the event manager was always last minute to create the feeling it was difficult to work with Kosmic Fusion. But the organizer had met SreeMaaShriJi before and had a positive impression, which I was jealous about. I then made sure to be difficult, not being organised well enough, also when I cancelled the following event last minute. I then asked Orja to communicate further with him, to put any blame on her, not myself.

 

I created a write up to manipulate others to think I am the leader, then showed it to Renu and Orja for feedback to pretend working as a group. In the write up I focused on the power and importance of the devotee to subtly manipulate interested people to create a relationship with me, not SreeMaaShriJi. I did not involve Komal and Ekta in it, which would have changed this focus. When Renu first could not make the event, I used it to manipulate her and others to think she is no good devotee and that as a true devotee finances would never be an obstacle. Look at me, I have no money and still go and even pay Jeeya’s airticket, such a genuine, sincere devotee I was.

 

I did not prepare the event properly to sabotage it. Then I spend the first morning running around for photocopies etc., happy not to contribute at the stand and leave it up to Orja and Jeeya to do the work and offer Bhakti Bhaav.

When SreeMaaShriJi said we needed a strong devotee I hated that I was not called strong and genuine.I then thought of Komal and Jeeya, but not of Renu as a strong devotee at all; putting Renu down. I used any oppotunity to portray and make Renu feel she is not good enough. I always  came from separation so that I can manipulate and control individuals. That’s why I also do not like to be transparent and used Kosmic Fusion resources to sabotage and destroy. I used the volunteers for the Wellness Festival and exploited them, made them work for me, buy a plant, organize a carpet. In the preparation I included Ekta and Komal only to make myself be seen as the leader and hard working. I never included Sarah and Renu. This way they could not connect to Ekta and Renu and I could control them.

SreeMaaShriJi knew exactly what I was doing, but even then gave me so many chances to change, e.g., with emails that criticized my wrong ways and encouraged me to move forward and change. But every time I received any criticism from SreeMaaShriJi, I become more revengeful. My twisted self inside hated to be criticised and pretended I was devoted.
I come to understand that even if the oppotunity to take revenge is served to me, I would not take it. I enjoyed so much hurting others, but now I am hurting inside myself. And that feeling is not enjoyable at all.

 

I was reading the Vachanamrut to look good and also part of manipulating. I wanted to learn parts of the Vachanamrut so that I can quote from it and manipulate and control others into trusting me.

 

The Aarti was a ritual I just performed and felt like a duty. I felt happy when I had my period and had a break from it. To prepare Aarti was just part of my manipulating games to be trusted as a genuine devotee. I even tried to manipulate Shree Ji Maharaj by asking every morning for help to change my ego. But I never wanted to change and just pretended. I went through the motions of doing Aarti. I also sabotaged the Aarti by touching the TV and changing settings when I was clearly told not to change anything. My twisted, distorted mind wanted to destroy the Aarti, so that the Ashram cannot sustain and SreeMaaShriJi would be negatively affected.

I could not feel love and during Bhakti Bhaav hooked my energy into Swaminarayan Bhagwan to take only. I was pretending to do Bhakti Bhaav, but my distorted mind was active and never wanted to surrender, but control and take and take from Shree Ji Maharaj. I never wanted to change and doing Aarti and Bhakti Bhaav was just another game to control others into thinking I am genuine and trustworthy. But I was always a Fraud.

During the time when my malicious self was exposed by SreeMaaShriJi, I still manipulated Nandini, Jeeya and Orja; I looked mad and very fragile to make them feel scared and sorry for me, subtly putting blame on SreeMaaShriJi. I was playing the victim game. It was my malicious game to control the situation and people around me.

I always made Nandini look bad. It was my way to take revenge on her for the time I was working in her shop. Even now during my confession to SreeMaaShriJi, when SreeMaaShriJi gave me a chance to acknowledge Nandini’s help, I did not give any credits to her and still only use her for my benefit.

 

So many times I also showed a cold shoulder to Orja and treated Jeeya like a servant. The pilgrimage to India I treated like a holiday. I enjoyed staying at the nice hotels and wanted to spend as little money as possible. I always played the victim game of not having money and manipulated Orja, Ekta and Mala in buying two scarfs for me. I also made Ekta lend me money. I hated to keep donating for the temples. I hated getting up so early to go for Pooja. But I kept pretending I was so sincere. I enjoyed just sitting in the bus, being driven, not doing anything. Seva was too hard for me, I did not like doing it at all.

I felt superior as a white and enjoyed being served by Indians I treated SreeMaaShriJi like another travel companion and only folded my hands in respect after I had been told to. I hated being told off and wanted to sabotage the pilgrimage.

I was jealous of Niranjana and Archita. When they were waiting for the group to get ready for the museum, I manipulated them into ordering Chai, knowing that it will take too long and Niranjana and Archita would run out of time.

Regarding my confession, I did email Komal one version to give an idea. But then before I put it out on Facebook I asked Jeeya, if I should show it to someone. Then I could blame Jeeya later, who said I had to do it on my own. I could then take revenge in my confession, portraying myself as the victim.”

 

We wish to share below clip from March 2017, to debunk some incorrect claims made by Ms Amoutzias and Ms Kuo. This short 20 minute clip gives good enough information on the transparency and clarity maintained by Sree Maa & Shri Ji throughout the FiT programme, there was no hierarchy, expectation and their desire to halt the FiT programme as some of the FiT didn’t walk their talk.

Reference: Handwritten admittance provided by Meera/Iphigenie Amoutzias, these were written at  her own discretion & will. Meera/Iphigenie Amoutzias posted these letters to us to find her way back in Kosmic Fusion by making false pleas at various occasions. We could not take the risk of being associated with Meera/Iphigenie Amoutzias as everyone (including Komal/Irene Kuo) that raised concerns for their personal safety.